today 14th Feb, 2011 and i am 23 years old and had more than 15 relationships in the past.. some casual, few intense but always end up as single and there were many reasons behind that and the most important that i feel was that that feeling wasn't there anymore but still i do miss that good time i had and even some of them are married now and some are getting and trust ME, i am very happy for them.

umm.. last relation ended in mid july 2010, i was in Jaipur for my summer internship and it was one of the best relation i been to and we still in touch as friends. Then when i got back to jammu, i met few girls and the number was 2 this time not gonna name them but yes, 1 was from my college and i believe i had kinda crush on her and other i came into contact through Facebook. I was talking to them and i was confused, so i started flowing with the flow.

And it was Valentine's Day 2011.. big day i suppose so in habit of celebrating this day, i started thinking how and with whom.. believe ME till midnight 13 Feb 2011 wasn't sure and suddenly got this call wishing me valentine, i consider that as a sign and we decided to meet up tomorrow. It was the girl i know from Facebook and it wasn't kinda blind date, we had met before.

umm.. thinking all night How to make it a special day.. i came up with few things, i thought of some flowers, chocolates (her fav. ones), valentine cake and a bottle of fruit champagne and i made all things available in the morning only. One honest confession, while i was arranging things, i don't know why i wasn't excited about this and somewhere deep very deep in my heart, i was hoping not to do this but i decided to face it so i went to the university though i was litle late for the class and SPECIAL THANKS to my friend Sahil Sharma who was there for ME to help me out with the stuff. so i was all set with my surprise. She had sum practical to attend so we had plan to meet after that only.

Now, time to mention an other litle story. In some fest, i again met some girl and yes i was lucky enough to be her friend thanks to Facebook. Did i tell you, many of my friends consider ME as a flirt and i dont know whether they right or wrong. So the way i am, i started talking to this girl and we are good friends now, atleast i believe so. Again i think i kinda like her, thats it for the time now.

SO back to valentine thing, she calls me in the after noon and said, she won't be able to meet me today and dunno, despite of getting pissed off, my reply was it's ok without even asking WHY ? And i myself didn't know the reasons. It was after 1pm and my next class was at 3pm so i left the university, went for a drive all alone and listening to some songs and thinking weird things. On the way back to university, i stopped by at my fav. dimsum place, had a full plate and was feeling good, might be i was hungry.. hmm

Also i got call from the other girl wishing ME the same and this girl is crazy about ME even proposed ME but i dunno, i'm not sure the way she is. So not creating more trouble for her, i keep myself a little away from her and i do feel sorry for this.

I was back in university, time must be quarter to 3 and got call from my so-called Valentine again, what i heard was, i have reached home but i can come back again if YOU only want and my reply was.. NO, i have a class to attend then other thing i heard was Let's meet tomorrow.. and i said.. i ain't sure but yes will tell you tomorrow and call ended.

Trust ME, i wasn't a little mad on her without giving much thought on it and i attended my class and went back to my place and slept (may be because last night it was late) and woke up quite late and suddenly Everything was clear.. if it didn't hurt ME then it was very right that we din't spent this day of LOVE together.. so here i am all singLe again, waiting for my Valentine ..!!